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 Page 8 of 9 I grew up with my mother repeating certain anecdotes about my childhood to the whole family. One is that when I was two years old, I used to disappear in the middle of the night. My parents put in six locks on the front door and locked all of the windows, but to no avail. No matter how early they woke up, I would be found many blocks away, naked, clutching my teddy bear, happy as could be in the middle of a cow pasture. One time a woman had found me there at six A.M. and brought me to the police. After that, I would not sleep at night , but laughed and talked in my bed for hours. A friend of my parents who worked as a psychic came in once, then told my parents I was playing with the souls of unborn babies. She re-entered the room and said out loud, "You'll all have to leave now, ------- needs her sleep!" and from that day on, I went to sleep at night with no problem. At the age of three, I would see someone no one else could see, who I called the « funny man », and could not understand why no one else could see him. Between the ages of nine and eleven, I used to sneak out of the house at night and go to a nearby field, where I would mount and ride the horses bareback that were there.Twice I tried to bring friends to join me, but each time they came back very upset and refused to ever come with me again. I don't remember anything bad happening those times. When I was fifteen, I had a day that was truly bizarre. I had been in a strange mood, just like the sort of emotional anesthesia I described earlier, I was listless and tired, empty of all thought. I did not attend my afternoon classes, but found myself at home in the evening, traumatized and weeping, afraid of everything around me.I had no idea where I'd been or how I got home.I went to my parents, who immediately took me to a psychiatric hospital, where I underwent a full battery of tests. The psychiatrist there claimed the results were unreliable, and accused me of not being honest with my answers- which was not true! In any case, more tests were done, and those too, were inconclusive. I continued to see a psychiatrist afterwards, and was put on antideppressants for a while, but my problems seemed to be over.No one but I seemed interested in finding out what had happened that afternoon. I questioned all my friends, but no one had seen me that afternoon. To this day, it is a mystery. One other stange account that took place while I was pregnant with my first child, is a bit suspicious. While driving through a deserted place at night on our way up to Northern California, my boy friend and I saw a bright light coming from far away in the distance, and for some reason decided to take a small off road to go see what it was. But we quickly decided to stop the car on that road and just sleep there for the night, in our seats. I remember nothing else about that night except waking in the morning a bit sore from sleeping in the tiny car. I've searched my mind for anything out of the ordinary that happened during my second pregnancy, but could only come up with one day during which I had fainted and woke up on the side of the road when walking to my son's school to pick him up. When I got there, I was late, but they'd taken care of my child. My mother also told often of the time she had a twenty four hour memory loss, from which she awoke finding herself in the fetal position on her apartment floor. For a week afterward she ran around telling people she had seen God and learned all the secrets of the Universe. It being the late sixties, she always assumed that someone had probably given her, without her knowledge, a large dose of L.S.D. Maybe. But the fact that this occured at about the same time she became pregnant with me makes it suspect in my eyes. I don't wish to say that I am sure any of this is relevant, only that it all merits being examined, just in case. My six year old daughter only spoke once more of the « nice white robots », but it was rather interesting. She saw in the T.V. guide a picture of the alien in the film about Roswell, which was scheduled to air in a couple days. She immediately took it to me and asked me, "Is it one of the babies? Where's the lady that takes care of him?". All I could say was I don't know.... Next: Physical Manifestation >>> |