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 Page 10 of 10 Looking back at that report I wrote to you was wierd, it seems so long ago and far away! It was strange to see that in reality, it was not that long ago. I could honestly say I am not the same person now, as I was then! I have undergone a radical change. For me, it feels as if I have awakened to my true self, like I have been asleep for most of my life. I have found my memory.
Not long after I wrote that report for you, I awoke one night to see two tall silhouettes standing at the foot of my
bed. They seemed to be talking, but I only caught the last phrase, which was,
I heard it both in french and english, at the same time, so I believe that it was actually a telepathic communication. My brain put the thought patterns into the two languages I speak and understand. I was very awake. I did not know what this meant. At this time, I had just gotten online, and was searching the Internet trying to find people who had experienced the same as I to talk with. I was concerned about the idea of whether or not the Grey's I'd dealt with were good or bad, and whether or not there was anything I could do to stop my experiences. There was so much conflicting opinion on that among « abductees », that I soon just got more confused and frustrated. So I just decided to pray for protection often, and to fill myself with positive feelings and love. I figured that if they were bad, or evil, then they would be repulsed by my positivity and love. In any case, I trusted that I was protected. We had one visit, in which small beings came in and were standing around the bed. I woke up my husband, who seemed to recognize them, and didn't seem afraid at all! I then remember going outside with them, and each of us being held by a grey, gripping lightly our arms, and we flew upwards. My memory is faint now about what happened after that. The next thing I remember is flying downwards above my house, watching the roof come closer, and thinking excitedly that I was going to go right through it. That is just what I did, and flew into my bed. Then came a visit that was totally different from all the rest, and marked a total change in events. What happened sounds like a crazy dream, but it seemed to me, then and now, to be more real than reality in my everyday life! I don't know how to explain that any other way. We were awakened one night by human looking beings, one female and two males. They awaken all the family, my husband and I, and our three kids. They were very kind and respectful towards us, and we all seemed to recognize them! They seemed to emanate love. I had a conversation with them and they were telling me they'd been coming for a while, but made me forget each time. I asked why? I would have loved to remember meeting you! She said the time had to be right, I had to be ready when I remembered. We all prepared to go somewhere with them- I remember my three year old all excited and running around looking for his shoes! We were taken into an elogated, cigar shaped ship which hovered over the house.
While inside, my husband and kids chose to sleep on the ship (I know that doesn't make sense, but at the time it
seemed totally natural, there where beds, and they were given free choice). I had a sort of meeting with the
woman and the men, around a round table. We talked about many things, but there was question of a choice
I could accept or not, pertaining to a mission of some sort. At one point, I started bringing up my questions about
the Grey's, and what had happened to me, and where they good or not? The woman, (who seemed to be a
commander of sorts) suddenly got very serious, and the phrase she said seemed pretty enigmatic, and echoed in
my head for a long time afterwards-
The understanding I had of what she meant was that I should not look anymore into books or the Internet, being exposed to various theories and conflicting opinions. I got the feeling that there was a danger of hidden propaganda, danger, or deception floating in all that. Not being in the States, where apparently there is much suspicion, I hadn't thought of that possibility before! After this meeting, in which we communicated verbally for the most part, but when something was hard for me to put into words, we would do it telepathically, we went into another room, and the two men gave me lessons in flying and travelling with my etheric body. I continued to talk with a group of « abductees », and strange coincidences began happening- first someone brought up something that had happened to them: he kept finding himself looking at the clock when it was either 11:11 or 12:12, and these numbers began showing up everywhere in his life, and in those of people he was close to. I had been noticing the same thing going on in my life, on the other side of the world! Then something strange happened to my three year old.
He woke up one morning, all excited, saying that he had been visited by one of the « pilots ». He said they are
people who are tall and have blue eyes. (the humanoids who were in the cigar type ship all had blue eyes, which
made me think he might be talking about them). He said the pilot told him some very important things.
He kept talking about it non-stop, and started scaring my husband a bit, who got a little angry. He kept asking, is it time yet? Is it time to go to the planes? I didn't know what to say! I eventually told him, that we would know when it was time, to calm him down. Later that day, he suddenly said, »Momma! It's time! Look! » pointing to the clock, which said 11:11! I asked why he thought it was time, and he said the pilot showed him a watch with these numbers. Since then, he asks every once in a while the same question- is it time yet? But also talks of the pilots, saying they are very nice, and that he is one of them! He says he was one « before I was in your tummy », but that he will go back into being one soon, when the time comes. He also says happily that he doesn't see the « snakes » anymore, they are all gone. I have not had anymore contact with the Grey's either. Then there was a big event. It happened to me, and about four other people I had been corresponding with, at the same time. It was nighttime for them, but on this side of the world, it was the day. My son and I were going home from shopping, and found traffic blocking the road home, so we decided to go walk around downtown until it lessened up. As I parked the car, I suddenly felt something come over me, as if I was being guided, and since I had learned that usually leads to something new that would help me learn, I just let go of control and went with it. We ended up on a small dark back street, entering a tiny used book store. My son and I where talking away and not paying attention to where we were going, and I walked straight to the back of the shop, reached out my hand and grabbed a book by hasard, and without thinking, bought it! I did not know what it was about. When I got home and opened it, I was surprised to find it was written by someone who claimed to have various UFO contact experiences. What happened was that as I read it, it seemed to tick off memories for me, my own past contacts began to come back to me full force, and I began realizing, or remembering, many things of great importance. I remembered that I knew all about what was happening, in fact, had before I was born! I had come on earth in this incarnation, at this time, for very specific reasons, and absolutely everything that had happened in this life so far, from the worst to the best, had been planned out between myself and the souls of others in my life, to prepare me, and them for our various roles and missions in the grand scheme of things! This was huge, and I jumped on the site and message boards I took part in, and just exploded excitedly with all this. At the same time, a fewothers did the same, about three or four others had shared a dream, the same one, in which they were all conscious and aware of each others presence. They had had the same retrieval of memory, and it went back to the beginning of time, our whole history, as it had for me, and our visions were the same. They had been standing in front of a bright light that spoke to them and welcomed them back. In the messages we were each posting, the time of posting recorded next to each one began to show always either 11:11 or 12:12, although we were all in different time zones, and didn't even know what time zone this clock on this site was set on! Things began to move very quickly for each one of us, changing rapidly. For me, during my daily meditations, I had a confrontation with one of my own past incarnations, which took me back through all of my lives here, starting with one in Atlantis, and the whole history, my own, and that which I witnessed throughout time, just flooded back in. (I should point out that before this time, I did not believe in reincarnation, or at least, the idea did not interest me). I also was revealed a name, a sort of name which belonged to my soul identity, a combination of vibrations, sounds, which was specifically my own. This all happened to my friend, who remembered the same history of earth, although his lives seemed to begin in MU, or Lemuria. I began to recieve teachings, throughout the day and night, like a voice explaining everything within myself and out. My growth just spiralled everyday, my wisdom grew incredibly with each minute. I began to do experiments with etheric travel, in which people I visited would actually see me, and one even felt me pinch him! I was changing. I went through a period in which, I started feeling anxious and a bit panicky, I was sure something terrible was going to happen. I had visions of an earthquake, and a friend in the states had a dream of an earthquake happening where I live too. I got in this strange mood of saying goodbye to everyone! Then for three days, I had terrible pains, that felt just like labor pains, that tortured me, and by the third day, I was forced to stay crouched down, panting and breathing deeply. When it was over, I felt like a different person! As if I had given birth to myself! I knew my past, my present, and future, as if I had joined with my soul and all of it's memories, that I had awakened! The earthquake happened- but within me, and it revealed my true self emerging like a butterfly! This does sound melodramatic, but I think it is impossible to describe, it is the most huge and miraculous thing. My teachings began to lead me to all sorts of learning and understanding, I began to have contact with beings made of light, which led me places, and showed me things. My psychic-type senses began to work in different ways, and I am capable of things I didn't think possible before. I now just follow my instincts, knowing that everything that happens, every person I run across, has a reason; and if I pay attention, and do not try to avoid what ever comes at me, I find there is something to be gained from them, something to be learned. It has made life a wonderful adventure indeed, and I am truly living in the moment, paying attention only to NOW. It was hard for me to go back and write about all this stuff in the past, because I feel like, by focusing my thoughts on yesterday, I may miss something going on today! A song playing in the background, with an important message, a bird in the yard, with something to symbolise and teach, a cloud passing that holds a new revelation... There is so much to say on all of this, the way my life has become different...but I will say that I am now creating my life in a way I never have. I mean that I have to be careful with what I think and feel, because it creates. This is true for everyone, always has been, but we weren't aware of it- that we are creating our world, our lives, each moment. I mean this quite literally, speaking of events and objects of matter. But at this time, the forces have concentrated this, the time has shortened, speeded up, and it becomes more evident. In everyday life, this is manifested like this- For example, last week, my husband and I spoke together about wanting a dog, but we had a lot of ideas about how this dog would have to be, not too big, not too small, a certain type of character, etc.. We described in detail what kind of dog we wished to have. Then we forgot about the conversation. Two days ago, a dog showed up on our doorstep. THE dog! Absolutely everything we talked about, in physical ways, behavioral ways, everything! We have looked everywhere, asking who she belongs to, but nobody knows. She just seems totally loyal to us, does not need a leash, for she sticks beside us, even our cat, who hates dogs, eats from the same dish with her! So we have had to accept, we wished for her, she came, she's ours. A coincidence, yes, but these sorts of coincidences happen everyday now! Whatever we wish for plops into our lap, and whatever we are afraid of too! This is the thing- fear brings monsters right to your door! So controlling your thoughts, and being positive and loving are more important than ever. Some of the experiences I had were truly unbelievable! One day, I began recieving messages telepathically that the next step I had to learn was to effect the same state of mind as when in meditation ,while moving around and doing other things. But everytime I tried, and felt my etheric body stretching out beyond it's normal limits, I would get a pain in my stomach. I couldn't do it. By the afternoon, I got the urge to go hiking in the hills where I often go. Walking up the forest path, I saw in front of me many light beings, and one brighter than the others that was pointing which way to go. I followed them for an hour, and just as my intuition told me I was coming to the place I was supposed to, I came to a clearing . It was triangular, at each corner a very tall tree. Three pinetrees unlike the rest of the forest, which was mostly oaks and olive trees common to this area of South France. In this clearing were three men, who I guessed to be about fifty years old, all busy walking around picking up stones and such. I got the feeling they were clearing it for some sort of get together or meeting. So I continued up the path, not wanting to stop where they were, but when I passed the clearing, the light being seemed to say « No » with movements, and pointed me back! So I returned, and as I passed through, one of the men came and bent before me, as if he was going to pick up a stone in my path. As he raised his head, he looked at the ring on my finger (a strange ring that I inherited from my grandmother, and always felt had some sort of special significance) then stood up directly in front of me, and said « Bonjour. » I felt paralyzed when I saw his face that close because he had these bright blue eyes like I had never seen, slightly dark perfect looking skin, - and no pupils!! He also had pointed ears! I choked out a « Bonjour » in return, and continued on my way hurriedly. As I got further away, I looked back and saw all three men standing watching me, not moving. On the way back down the mountain, I began to have a shift in consciousness, and everything began to look strange. I began to see around me as if from higher above, and realized that I was doing it! My etheric body was stretching out and I was using it's senses, as well asmy physical ones! I wanted to stop walking, got very tired, and was ready to drop down in the dirt and sleep when a voice came into my head loudly, « No! Don't stop! You're doing it! Keep going! » It was amazing! Eventually I stopped, unable to continue like that, and sat underneath a big oak. I watched around me, as I began to see some sort of beings, existing on a different dimension, it seemed, running and moving all over the place! They were small. I also could see another phenomenon, that I had percieved before- silvery strings, like spiderwebs, all over the place, attaching everything. In the past, when I saw this, and thought « What the heck is this? » That inner teaching voice said that it was thought and emotions, creating all that is- by us, humans! Anyway, I'm getting too long with my personal experiences here, there is too much to tell! But there is a much, much larger revelation to expose, concerning all life here, and our planet, and our relations and contacts with extraterrestrials at this time! I am here with a certain purpose, and am working hard on performing it. I have met many who have been through all the same sorts of things, and are working on the same goals. The question of « infiltration », yes, this is happening, on a large scale, and the world is undergoing a stage of the evolutionary process that has been prophecied by almost all peoples, all cultures, through out time. And there are many entities involved...we all are! There seems to me to be various key times which both I and other contactees have in common- we all had our first experiences with Et's at the age of 2, become consciously aware and remembering them in 1995, and experienced what we see as an « awakening » this year, 1998. I think that exposing my own experiences for the first time to you, Ben, was a first step that I was led to, towards my own awakening. I will write more on this happening, because there is a lot, and many cases, there is proof of what is happening even amongst scientific circles. As I began getting messages about this, I was led towards studying Quantum Physics, astrology, astronomy, numerology, biology and physiology, and the various arts- music, visual arts, movement, and energetic principles. They are all parts, or peices of a very large puzzle. They are all interconnected. My original messages pertaining to DNA go beyond the reproductive program of the Grey's, as I thought at first- oh no, it is much much more than that! Next: Index >>> |